Tag: shame
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Feeling my feelings
Catch myself hiding, am I really okay? Notice emotions, too scared to say. Fear of my feelings holds them at bay; denigrate and deny, wish they’d all go away. When talking with people, put the focus on them. Avoid facing emotions, ignoring overwhelm. Unfamiliar feelings, inability to name. Keep forcing down, compartmentalize shame. Avoidance and…
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Not-Shame
Gaining perspective, reveals raw edges. Twists and tangles, seen from new angles. Up close and personal, huge rôle reversal. Afraid of finality, too much reality. Swimming in a sea of fear and misery, Impossible to name so drenched in shame. Release the old story, Protection illusory. Could a glimpse of ‘not-shame’ be sufficient to change?
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Weight of Silence
There’s things I can’t say in polite conversation. Holding back truth prolongs separation. But the risks of naming are all too clear, So I hold it all in and live with the fear. There’s things I don’t say for fear of judgement. What will they think if I disclose my resentment. They had it so…
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Dear Sister
Is there anything you wish to say to me?Let’s be frank, speak openly. I see pain on your face, you’re clearly angry. Holding on to this must be torture. Is there anything I can do for you?I know this hurts, it’s my truth too. I can’t change the past, no hope of rescue. Feeling helpless…
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Anger
Don’t shrink to fit your anger for long. You were innocent, a child, You did nothing wrong. Sucked into a vortex, Downward spiral of shame. Don’t turn anger inwards. You’re not to blame. You grew up in fear, Sharp breath, held inside. Afraid to exhale In case he’d ignite. Fly off the handle, He lacked…
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Words
Words stuck in my throat Behind a wall of unshed tears. Past traumas, inaccessible. A childhood, Unspeakable. Silenced, Don’t tell. Sweep it under the rug. Hidden in plain sight. Nothing to see here. Pain in my head, my heart, my body, my soul. A burden that was never mine to carry. Let it go. Rest…
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