Tag: overwhelm
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Tears
Pained to speak through gritted teeth, when words retreat for safety. Forced to hide, against a tide of thinly veiled insanity. Hold back tears, Frozen by fear, relief appears inaccessible. Body tenses, overwhelmed senses triggered defences, inevitable. Halt time and space. Immobilized face, A tear escapes detection. Fear overflowing, no one knowing, terror of showing…
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Feeling my feelings
Catch myself hiding, am I really okay? Notice emotions, too scared to say. Fear of my feelings holds them at bay; denigrate and deny, wish they’d all go away. When talking with people, put the focus on them. Avoid facing emotions, ignoring overwhelm. Unfamiliar feelings, inability to name. Keep forcing down, compartmentalize shame. Avoidance and…
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Overwhelm
Overwhelmed by thoughts. Unfocused. Distraught. Can’t do what ought to be easy. Drowning in emotion. Paralyzed. Frozen. Invisibly broken, soul destroying. Overwhelmed by feelings, Once repressed, now revealing. Can’t mask or make meaning to soothe. Crushed by life. Head locked in a vice. Is this the price of truth?
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Freeze
A downward depression Energies sink low. Submerging exhaustion, Too heavy to float. Done with the editing, For self preservation. A shield from judgement and condemnation. Hopelessly drained, Numb tears run dry. Dull eyes entertain, Flat, joyless sunrise. Done with the shaming, Seeking a source. Cut off the power Of painful thoughts. Cold, calm, disconnected, Far-off,…
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Understanding
Dull ache at the temples. Painful, clenched jaw. Blank eyes, tight shoulders, Heavy hearted, withdrawn. Who is that person, The reflection I see? Unsmiling, remote. Is this really me? Stays out of the limelight, Afraid to be seen. Avoiding attention, Safer unaccompanied. To speak my story. Every word rings true.Reflected back in their eyes,“I’m sorry…
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Numb
A day of emotions, Too overwhelming. What do I need, Words or feelings? 🌻
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Pretending
I’ve spent my whole life,as far back as I can remember,Pretending to everyoneThat everything’s fine. I even denied my own reality, Now that really is the worst kind of gaslighting. I really believed This fairy tale story, That I sold to the world Was truthful and honest. Avoidance, denial, Maladaptive behaviours All served a purpose…
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Silenced
You took the words from my mouth. Fear strangled my cries. I wanted to hide, But you exposed me.
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It’s my party …
Seated at campfire, Flames leaping, high. Excuse me while I hug My bottle of wine. Sing, rousing chorus. Parts harmonize. Bitter-sweet melody draws tears from my eyes. Wine-soaked, glass empty. Numbness, relief?Unanswerable questions. No end to this grief. 🌻
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Drowning
Sad, Deflated. Disappointed, Invalidated. Seeking connection, To lift the depression. Deny, Suppress. Avoid, Repress. Chronically busy, Ignoring reality. Hide, Be Still. Tensed, Invisible. Jittery feeling, Anxiety building. Panic, Fear. Shutdown, Disappear. Alarmed aloneness, Everyone’s Oblivious. Numb, Freeze. No space to breathe. 🌻
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