Tag: CPTSD
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Soul Destroying
I try so hard But my thoughts are unreliable. My heart knows the truth But the memories feel unbearable. This internal war Is not sustainable. Endlessly striving Is Soul destroying. 🌻
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My Song
The lyrics of my life, Perpetual search for equilibrium. Precarious balance on a tight rope between overwhelm and boredom. Highly driven, seeking novelty, To the beat of my own drum. Each verse, a tale of challenges, Brings insight to old memories. What once seemed unresolvable, Is transmuted by sweet harmonies. Joyful anthems, somber solos. Threads…
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Compassion
Divine essence. Pure presence. Braced against An existence That makes No sense. 🌻
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More or less
Spinning in circles, Aimless, exhausting. Useless and purposeless, Unfocused, despairing. No escape from the past. Stark house of mirrors. Reflections distorted, Amplify horrors. Sadness weighs heavy. A shroud of silence. Impenetrable walls, Invisible defence. More than past moments. Keep seeking true essence. With presence comes wisdom. A glimmer of hope. 🌻
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Today
Today I am floundering. Yesterday’s progress undone. Tomorrow’s to do list already begun. Today I am tired. Yesterday was exhausting. So much accomplished. Surprisingly productive. So today I need rest. Learn the lesson, go slow.Pausing to breathe, Go with the flow. One step at a time. Delight in each moment Of compassion, contentment, Being gratefully…
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Lies
I thought I’d fooled everyone, myself included. Denying it happened, would make it so. Fake it till you make it! But who am I fooling? All these years I’ve survived By betraying myself. I really believed my lies of omission. Now it seems obvious. Did you really not know? It’s time to be free From…
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Pause
Breathe In spaciousness, Open awareness Now. Rest. You are safe To surrender. You are secure. You are healing. Grow. You are becoming Who you were born Into this world To be. Trust. You are exactly Where You are meant To be. 🌻
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Pretending
I’ve spent my whole life,as far back as I can remember,Pretending to everyoneThat everything’s fine. I even denied my own reality, Now that really is the worst kind of gaslighting. I really believed This fairy tale story, That I sold to the world Was truthful and honest. Avoidance, denial, Maladaptive behaviours All served a purpose…
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Speechless Sadness
I ceased to exist. Profound Stillness. Utterly Silenced. Impenetrable Numbness. Braced against the world. Far, far removed. Serious little girl. Brown hair shorn, boyish. Brains, not looks. Watchful, a pleaser. Still, beauty shines Through solemn blue eyes. Tears flow silently. The only expression Of insurmountable grief. Prolonged aloneness Seeking accompaniment, Searching for safety. Speak, child.…
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Manifest
Daylight, awakening. Awareness transmuting Stuck energies of old To diamonds and gold. Feel into abundance, Divine inheritance. Emotional turmoil. Profoundly powerful. Spirit surrounds, With comforting arms. Know safety within Nurtures healing. Synchronicities aboundWatch for the signs. Higher Powers yield, Unique gifts revealed. Compassionately embrace Soft words of grace. 🌻
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