Alone

I need to be alone with my pain. 
Hold it all in, never speak of my shame. 
Shut others out - my default behaviour. 
Alarmed aloneness is all too familiar.  

I need to be alone with my thoughts. 
Too risky to share, riddled with doubts. 
Learning to trust, starts with myself. 
How can I ever trust anyone else?  

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