Thoughts

Waging war with my mind, 
 its not on my side. 
Saturated in shame, 
 self-righteous divide.  

Fighting my thinking, 
 Step back, stay detached. 
Observe, don't absorb; 
 Respond, don't react.  

I'm loosing the battle, 
 a self-abused casualty. 
Avoidance and doubt  
 Infiltrating intrusively. 

My mental dexterity 
 Disintegrating identity. 
Sympathetic shutdown, 
 Overwhelmed by reality.  

A primal protection, 
 triggered by fear. 
Heavy veil of dissociation;  
 I’m not really here. 

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