Reality is overrated

“Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.” - Soren Kierkegaard

What if … 
I’m not present? 
Am I absent?
I only realize
 what is happening
 after it happened, 
Because, really,
 I’m not here
 when it’s happening. 

What if … 
Everything
 makes sense, 
When
 I deny
  my own
   reality? 
Gaslighting
 myself? 

What if … 
It’s all a lie?
Who to believe?
How to trust?

What is reality anyway?