I didn’t know who I was anymore. I didn’t know what I wanted or where I was, or even when I was – certainly not in the present!
Life had become so painful that I didn’t want to do it anymore. I felt useless … hopeless … helpless … pointless … less … less … less.
I had to enter the dark, go right back to the start, to the core; excavate right down to soul level. Learn to be still with my pain and trauma. Work through it to see the gift and learn the lesson. Stop avoiding it in ‘busy-ness’ and do the actual (hard) work of healing.
I’m doing the work every day. I’m learning to trust in myself and trust each step as it becomes illuminated. And breathe ….
To The Core 